NAMASTE

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

All that I am

All that I am
and all that I shall be
is the resounding prescence of the Divine in me

you can take me
or leave me
you can judge what you see
still all that I am
is all that I should be

If I left here tomorrow
you would still only see
that all that I am
is all that I should be

When I wake in the morning
with the light in my eyes
I wake with a wonder of my thin disguise
for all that you see is not as it seems
all that I wake for is only in my dreams

The illusion so fragile
so frought with misconception
when I look in the mirror
and see my own reflection
for all that I am
is all that I should be
that reflection in the mirror
will always be me

Deep beneath the body
deep within the mind
is the loving kind nature of all of mankind

I continue to struggle
to fight the good fight
as I lay in the comfort of the sleep of the night

I wake once again
and what do I find
a body, a spirit
I create in my mind

I drift through the illusion
so familiar to me now
and wonder if I can let go of it
and I wonder how?

Time knows no prescence
Space is infinate in it's whole
and the only thing resounding
is the divinity of my soul

All that I am
and all that I shall be
is the resounding prescense of the Divine in me
 - Laura Burke Giustizia
excerpt from 'Journey of a Yogini from the heart to the heart'/Nov 09

Monday, September 28, 2009

'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds'

I re-posted this article yesterday and today decided to share it for a special friend.......whom I have had the pleasure of having several walks down memory lane with over the past while.

musician friend......whom has shared many wonderful stories of the good old days..of which I am eager to listen.......one day I may  discover 'a' connection.


The inspiration for 'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds' (LSD) has  been often eluded too .........'this' story is a heartwarming one amongst the much mysterious and mystical 'illusions' of the music world.....an enlightening story about friendship, compassion and 'truth'........


May "PEACE"  be found within the memories...Namaste


Lucy of 'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds' dies at age 46
By Gregory Katz, The Associated Press http://ca.news.yahoo.com/s/capress/090928/entertainment/eu_britain_beatles_lucy
Since re-posting this article yesterday the associated press has removed much of the wonderful information that they had originally posted.....like expanding on Julian's re-connection with 'Lucy' and his gifts to her over her last remaining years....gifts to help her discover more of the 'beautiful' in her passion...gardening...along with John's insistance of the legacy to Julien, insisting 'Lucy' was inspired by his young son's drawing and the backdrop to this whole story the valiant strength of Lucy Vodden who worked despite her own illness to educate and help search in the cure for Lupus...I wonder now if we can just 'Let it BE' for Lucy, Julien and John...Namaste

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

09 09 09

Is there and what, if any, significance is there to 09 09 09......this was the question running through my mind after a dance in the cornfield (yes, you read that right) that led to this blog.

The first significance I discovered was that 09 09 09 will be the last set of repeating digits in the calender until January 1, 2101 or if your a real stickler not until January 1, 3001.

A numerologist who works outside the realm of science would bring your attention to the significance to the special vibration or rank that the Number 9 holds and that is that the number 9 is associated with forgiveness, compassion and success, on the flip side (and there is always a flip side) it is associated with arrogance and self-righteousness......positive and negative, yin and yang.....the fine balance of the universe.

Pythagoras (a mathematician) noted for example that the sum of the 2 digits resulting from 9 multiplied by any other single digit number will equal 9...(took me a while)...here are some examples....9 x 3 = 27 and 2 + 7 = 9, 9 x 2 = 18 and 1 + 8 = 9, 9 x 62 = 558 and 5 + 5 + 8 = 18 and 1 + 8 = 9.....those of you with a mathematicians mind will figure it out quickly.

September 9 is also the 252 day of the year and.......2 + 5 + 2 = 9, as well 09 09 09 falls on a Wednesday in September and both have, of course, 9 letters.

Both the Japanese and the Chinese have special associations for the number 9, one positive and the other negative...

I am intrigued, although I have still found no solid evidence that this day has any special significance to the universe, maybe 09 09 09 will only be of significance to those individuals who experience an event on this day............if you get married, have a child, lose a loved one, get a promotion, lose your job or experience any other significant occurrence on 09 09 09 then I presume that this day will stand out in your existence.....to me it was just an ordinary day dancing in the cornfield.......and a day that reminded me that each day we are given is special....we are alive and here, able to experience all that life has to offer including the unknown significances going on in the universe around us.

So there you have it, not sure if my curiosity about 09 09 09 is satiated........now I am left to occasionally ponder on the significance of my own special number -3 and the significant date of
September 27, 2008, on which, during a solitary moment my body, mind and spirit took me on a journey through which my entire existence seemed to play together through very significant dates and numbers in my life weaving a connection and comprehension to many of the events in my existence, this is another blog.

MAYBE, we all have a special date (besides our birthday) and/or number associated with our existence.....there I go again......if I didn't have to get some sleep I might just go on a deeper search........I'll leave that up to you.

As I go to sleep tonight in anticipation of a brand new day tomorrow, I'll end the day hoping that the 3 9's of 09 09 09 shift the balance of the universe a little more to the positive side and bring about more compassion and forgiveness in the world, we can always use more of that.....Namaste

Just a little note I completed this blog at 9:39pm..................

Monday, August 24, 2009

Practice With a Purpose

Yoga Fundraiser in the Park
Fairylake Park, Main & Water St, Newmarket

Daily Practice Schedule


Tuesday, August 25th
4pm - 6pm - 5-10 minute Thai Yoga Massage for individuals
6pm – Yoga – Collective Compassion - Laura Guistizia
7:15pm - Lynn Duncan Smith
8:30pm – Belly Dancing with Laura Guistizia

Wednesday, August 26th
5pm - Amanda McFadyen - Family Yoga Class
6pm - Jenn Pike
7:15pm - Emilie Closs
8:30pm Kirtan led by Amanda McFadyen

Thursday, August 27th
6pm - Alanna & Corrine
7:15pm - Melissa Williams
8:30pm - Guided Meditation with Dr. Asha Frost

Sunday, August 30th
9:30am – Savasanahhh! Sunday with lululemon athletica
Upper Canada Mall w/ Melissa Williams and Lynn Duncan-Smith
(Complimentary Sunday morning practice to be held at Fairylake Park)

Just BE!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Practice with a Purpose


Be' change, create awareness


Melissa Williams of Hot Yoga Aurora is inspiring community awareness and compassion with an event at Fairylake bringing together many from the Yogic community including lululemon and a host of Yoga instructors including myself......

Practice With A Purpose
Yoga Fundraiser in the Park
When: August 25-27th
Where: Fairylake Park, Main & Water Street Newmarket, ON

This exciting practice in the park is a fundraising effort to empower young girls and women living in rural impoverished Africa. Practice with a Purpose has a goal to raise awareness and funds to support this important initiative through this week long yoga event in our Community.

To become involved with this event and obtain more information contact Melissa Williams at: melwilliams10@hotmail.com


I am grateful to have the opportunity to share 2 charitable sessions during this week long event:
'Collective Compassion' Yoga Practice
Tuesday August 25th 6-7pm - Laura Giustizia
'Women 4 Women' Bellydance Practice
Tuesday August 25th 8:30-9:30pm - Laura Giustizia

'Be' change.....create awareness.....Namaste

See you at the Park

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Bellydance - Women 4 Women



Bellydance.....what is it?
Despite many pre-conceived notions of what it is, where it comes from and what it means to be a bellydancer.....I thought I would share with you the origins of bellydance as I have learned about and come to know them........

Many conjure up fantasies of exotic women dressed to seduce and entertain men, right?.....the truth is this was only but a 'moment' in the life of bellydance.

As perhaps, one of the oldest forms of dance, no one can truly pinpoint the beginnings of this ancient rhythmic movement.....my own personal belief, it stems from the very creation of the female entity; an ancient, beautiful, mystical, mysterious form of feminine movement ingrained in the feminine to strengthen, heal and connect her with the DIVINE.

Think "TRIBAL"

As documented by many, no one has truly been able to pinpoint the exact origins of bellydance or pinpointed exactly where it all started. What is fascinating about this ancient practice is it's connection to feminine rituals practiced in the stone age, in fact, there are more artifacts depicting women deities (than images of men) from this age, which had led archaeologists to speculate that women were dominant and considered sacred in Stone Age society.

Bellydance has taken shape in many cultures, with many different styles cultivating out of different regions, what they all have in common is women's 'freedom to be' through rhythmic movement and dance.

Like many ancient practices, bellydance is a ritual passed down through the ages...creating the "feminine circle" in which we give and share with eachother the  courage, strength, confidence, love and caring to 'be' woMeN.

In times when women were kept seperate, cast out from (male) dominated arenas of existance, unable to participate in their rituals, their circles...women had their own way  to show reverence and pay homage for their appreciation of life, to express their joys and sorrows through living, loving, sharing, supporting and teaching eachother the rhythmic movements of the 'cirlce of life'.....and so they danced together.

Women danced together to honor Mother Earth and were taught to dance as a way to celebrate and worship themselves (the Goddess) as well as all women, they danced for sexual fertility and in preperation for child birth. This ritualistic dancing formed the foundation for Modern Day bellydance.

The tradition of women dancing for women continues  into more recent history .
In the harems of the mid-1400's, female gypsy bellydancers where hired to entertain women, not the Sultan. In Egypt, a tribe of gypsys incorporated showy props such as veils, candles and swords that are still used in Bellydance today.


In Cairo in the 18oo's bellydance was forced underground due to religious restrictions, it
re-emerged again in and around the 1850's. It is said that it was only in the beginning of the 19th century that men caught their first glimpses of bellydance. Europeans travelling to Africa and the Middle East became more and more enticed by Bellydance. Renoir and Matisse painted harem women, Oscar Wilde staged the "Dance of the seven veils" (1893) and it was after this that bellydancers began to make appearances in Hollywood's earliest silent films, thus the love affair with bellydancing began.


In the turn of the century, in the Middle East and North America, bellydancers dressed in ornate costumes danced flowingy on their toes, performing subtle hip movements along with graceful arm and hand gestures much like the modern day Egyptian bellydance.

Society' attitude toward bellydance began to change and once again it became a form of liberation and empowerment for women and the tradition continues.   Today women continue to bellydance together continuing to give depth and meaning to the circle of life, they continue to strengthen and soften through rhythmic movement. Bellydance is less about the stage or the costume and more about the rhythmic movement and the story unfolding......in order to be to see, hear and understand that story one needs to loosen from inhibitions, let the rhythmic flow of life itself move through...as the belldance speaks, expresses and let's go from a heart that dance's to the rhythm of it's own beat.....to move through innate wisdom by which the 'true' self is revealed...
As women today move more and more through previously male dominated arena's, 
nourishing strength and wisdom through Self-empowermment as they re-define their place in this world...Bellydance and other ancient practices continue to allow the feminine entity to hold onto 'her' ability to live, love, express, share and retain femininity and softness of Body, Mind and Spirit. ..it is 'her' calling...Namaste

"I dance not because I want to, I dance because I have to"
To learn more: Bellydance; orgins; Link :http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Belly_dance#General

 'FOOTNOTE'
The Bellydance (feminine) influence: Mick Jagger and Robert Plant both of whom took on a slightly femine persona (personal observation) and shared it with the world, would be sure to admit that the female entity and her rhythmic and exotic movement have influenced everything and everyone along the way...
For a little more 'insight' into this theory...take a look at this recent article from
The New Yorker on Jagger prepping in Toronto for his upcoming Tour:
article taken from newyorker.com/archive/2002/09/09
http://www.newyorker.com/archive/2002/09/09/020909fa_fact?currentPage=all


This blog on bellydance has been floating around in my head for many months.....it never quite made it's importance to me evident until a few weeks ago.....now I know why it was so important for 'me' to share it........this blog is dedicated to the

'Women of the Congo.'

I want to share what I just discovered is taking place at this very 'moment' in the Congo in Africa. An area which is said to be no longer at war and working towards peace......this seem hard to believe when you consider the conditions that the women, girls, children and men of the Congo are faced with.......women and young girls are being raped, mutilated and ostracized from their community as rape and demoralization are used as a war tactic.
The state of the conditions in the Congo was referred to by Eve Ensler, V-Day founder and playwright  "nothing I ever experienced felt as ghastly, terrifying and complete as the sexual torture and attempted destruction of the female species here. The violence is a threat to all; young girls and village elders alike are at risk. It is not too strong to call this a femicide, to say that the future of the Congo’s women is in serious jeopardy." quote taken from www.womenofthecongo.com

how can we work to create a greener world when the world in which we live turns a blind eye to an atrocity of such enormity.........
Learn more: 'Women of the Congo':
Link : http://www.womenofthecongo.com/

Support and solutions:
Link :http://www.congowomen.org/stand-with-the-women-and-girls-of-the-drc/


Nothing we do can change the past, but everything we do changes the future.’
Ashleigh Brilliant

Be a part of 
Women4Women
proceeds to Raise Hope for the Congo


For further information on the Women4Women
Contact yogadivine@hotmail.com
Subject: Raise Hope for the Congo



















Friday, June 26, 2009

Start where you Stand


Start where you stand and never mind the past,
The past won't help you in beginning anew,
If you have left it all behind at last
Why, that's enough, you're done with it, you're through;
This is another chapter in the book,
This is another race that you have planned,
Don't give the vanished days a backward look,
Start where you stand.


The world won't care about your old defeats
If you can start anew and win success,
The future is your time, and time is fleeting,
There is much of work and strain and stress;
Forget the buried woes and dead despairs,
Here is a brand new trial right at hand,
The future is for him who does and dares,
Start where you stand.


Old failures will not halt, old triumphs aid,
Today's the thing, tomorrow will soon be,
Get in the fight and face it unafraid,
And leave the past to history;
What has been, has been; yesterday is dead
And by it you are neither blessed nor banned,
Take courage, be brave and drive ahead,
Start where you stand.

Berton Braley

Monday, June 8, 2009

FreeBird - an update

Strange, that the backdrop to this blog is that of my last blog "Free Bird", not really........I do not find it strange that today I came into the open garage to find a lone bird trapped inside. I frightened it and as it flew around the top of the garage trying to find it's way out, it bumped and banged into the walls. I tried to calm it, talk to it and assist it in finding it's way back to freedom (not a little unlike what I do for myself everyday). This was another sign for me (I know, how many can there be?) Many and many more where that came from...nothing is of coincidence to me......I can see within that experience in the moment, my own struggle at banging my head against walls of places where I don't belong.....finally and apparently for no reason at all the bird came down to a lower elevation and flew out the garage door, not before quickly flying by my head in a quick good-bye as it flew off into freedom on my front lawn to find a worm.......as far as omens go.......I believe this was just a little reminder to me that while we are all free, we can sometimes get lost within that freedom, losing our way, after a little while of banging into things somehow we find our way back to the place we belong...........a little banged up but happy and content to be back in flight in the right direction..........Namaste

Friday, June 5, 2009

Free Bird


I dwell in a tiny little part of the universe that has a backyard with well established, nourished trees and amongst those trees the birds love to sing and play...............................................
Bluejays, Robins, Crows, Love Birds and a multitude of others.
I love to sit and listen and watch as this reminds me of what it truly means to
"SING YOUR OWN SONG" and 'FREE FALL"............
if you never spread your own wings how will you know if you can 'FLY'?
Nature shows us in every moment of every day that even through change you can still 'BE' free.
Stick to the basics, the laws of nature...... 'BE TRUE TO YOURSELF'
Sing, dance and fly to the beat of your own rhythm.

Take the chance that if you "Let go" the wind will be beneath your wings to support you.
Take flight in the inevitable wisdom of God's creation.........Namaste

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Yoga in the city.........

Yoga in the city..........
During Savasana of my last Yoga session, we all went from being in the stillness of the moment to wait a moment, Led Zeppelin?...........now for me it was a personal sign........ask me how I know this (it was the song that got me shakin' it all over the place again, and is a big part of where I am at this moment)........for all the other Yogis and Yoginis in the class it was a distraction in the moment...........as we were finishing up our class late, an Arena staff member decided it was time to get his 'groove on'.........and lo' and behold to one of my favourite songs............so as everyone lay in the dark, in their breath, deepening into themselves and as I was working towards leading everyone back to the present moment........there was music to our ears or for many just a distraction...now what was I to do? I know what I wanted to do in the moment.........of course "shake it off" and so I did what any good instructor would do........I slowly worked to get everyone to their feet and had them all "shake it off".....some participated, some were amused, but what we all got out of that moment was that there may be distractions that throw you off or interfere with your moments..........it is not that you are distracted that should concern you, it is how you react to those distractions that you should be concerned with........are you able to remain within.........are you able to react in a manner that takes that distraction and incorporates it into the existing moment......and go with the flow........this seems simple enough for some, for others it is a true task. Learning to continue to be 'within' and allow for the unexpected is a true gift.........when we learn this gift it applies to every situation in our life..........leaving us with the ability to 'be' in the moment, even if that moment distracts us from our current activity........there will always be something, someone that can sway or shift our attention from the moment.........the question is whether we are able to stay in the moment, focused and balanced..........remembering that sometimes when we are pulled from our inner moments of peace and quiet back into the world of our own realities, there is a purpose, far beyond that which we may understand in that moment..........lulling us back into the reality of our existence, giving us the opportunity to reach beyond what is expected of a moment and giving way to the unexpected, to change and to truly living in the moment..........Namaste

Monday, March 30, 2009

Listen and Learn


I used to believe I found Yoga now I know Yoga found me.......listen and learn.......what was coming in my life, the storms I would face was I ready.........through infinite wisdom  I was taught....not an easy task for under that hard exterior  was fear and anger I was afraid to connect with.........so after getting back into shape physically (the easy part) after that, that's when it really all went down........rising up with the issues, pushing boundaries of my beliefs, stepping outside my own box having all my expectations blasted to tiny bits and pieces.......you could call it a bit of my own BANG!!!!!! and it has been as influential and impacting on my existence as a meteor falling to earth with it's shattering effect.......just like survivors of an event of such catastrophic proportions........I now get to rebuild, reconfigure and reasses all that I believe, perceive and think........'what a beautiful opportunity'.........a rough journey, but a brand 'NEW' journey...just like recreating an existence from nothingness, that is what I have to begin with.......recreating my world according to who I am in this very moment.......'the old me is dead & gone'.........I have been given the ability to look straight ahead, at this 'moment' more focused and strong than I have ever been........life will continue to throw it's circumstances my way....this is the way of life. Birth, renewal, death..........as Spring approaches I am more aware of this evidence than any other time of the year.....a time of renewal after a dormant state,  everything and everyone shifting through a rebirth, blossoming in new found energy within the light of grace upon the Earth......as the rains replenish from the sky and the earth brings forth regenerated life........I too become one with this process.....I have weathered many a cold dark storm, remained strong through dormancy and am blessed with the ability to sprout forth in an infancy of new found growth, unsure of quite what this blossom will become.....fully grounded in the knowledge that it will become......for this knowledge......Yoga was brought to me.

To those in the midst of the dark, those in the warmth of the light and those who have become...........Namaste

Monday, March 9, 2009

International Womens's Day March 8, 2009.....

Yesterday was International Women's Day, observed since the early 1900's which was a time of great expansion and turbulence in the industrialized world, a time of booming population growth and the rise of radical ideologies.

1908 was a time of great unrest and a time when critical debate was occurring amongst women. Women's oppression and inequality was spurring women to become more vocal and active in campaigning for change and in 1908 15,000 women marched through New York City demanding shorter hours, better pay and voting rights.

In 1909 in accordance with a declaration by the Socialist Party of America, the first National Woman's Day (NWD) was observed across the United States on 28 February.
Women continued to celebrate NWD on the last Sunday of February until 1913.


In 1910 a second International Conference of Working Women was held in Copenhagen.
Clara Zetkin (Leader of the 'Women's Office' for the Social Democratic Party in Germany) tabled the idea of an International Women's Day. She proposed that every year in every country there should be a celebration on the same day - a Women's Day - to press for their demands. Over a 100 women from 17 countries attended the conference, representing unions, socialist parties, working women's clubs, and included three of the first women elected to the Finnish parliament, Zetkin's suggestion were greeted with unanimous approval and thus International Women's Day was the result.

On March 19, 1911 following the decision agreed at Copenhagen,  International Women's Day (IWD) was honoured for the first time in Austria, Denmark, Germany and Switzerland. More than one million women and men attended IWD rallies campaigning for women's rights to hold public office, work, vote and be trained and end discrimination. Less than a week later on March 25,a tragic event, the 'Triangle Fire' in New York City took the lives of more than 140 working women, most of whom were Italian and Jewish immigrants. This disastrous event drew significant attention to working conditions and labour legislation in the United States which became  the focus of subsequent International Women's Day events.
1911 also gave rise to the women's 'Bread and Roses' campaign.


In 1913 on the eve of the World War I campaign for peace, Russian women observed their first International Women's Day on the last Sunday in February also in 1913, following discussions, International Women's Day was transferred to March 8th and this day has remained the global date for IWD ever since.

In 1914 women across Europe held rallies to campaign against the war and to express women's solidarity.

In 1917 on the last Sunday of February, Russian women began a strike for "bread and peace" in response to the death over 2 million Russian soldiers in the war. Opposed by political leaders the women continued to strike until four days later the Czar was forced to abdicate and the provisional Government granted women the right to vote. The date the women's strike commenced was Sunday 23 February.

Since its birth in the socialist movement, International Women's Day has grown to become a global day of recognition and celebration across developed and developing countries alike. For decades, IWD has grown  annually. For many years the United Nations has held an annual IWD conference to coordinate international efforts for women's rights and participation in social, political and economic processes.  1975 was designated as 'International Women's Year' by the United Nations and Women's organisations and governments around the world have also observed IWD annually on March 8th, by holding large-scale events that honour women's advancement while reminding us of the continued vigilance and action required to ensure that women's equality is gained and maintained in all aspects of life.


In 2000 and beyond IWD is now an official holiday in China, Armenia, Russia, Azerbaijan, Belarus, Bulgaria, Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan, Macedonia, Moldova, Mongolia, Tajikistan, Ukraine, Uzbekistan and Vietnam. The tradition sees men honouring their mothers, wives, girlfriends, colleagues, etc with flowers and small gifts. In some countries IWD has the equivalent status of Mother's Day where children give small presents to their mothers and grandmothers.

The new millennium has witnessed a significant shift in attitutudes to both women's and society's thoughts about women's equality and emancipation. With more women in the boardroom, greater equality in legislative rights, and an increased critical mass of women's visibility as impressive role models in every aspect of life, one could think that women have gained true equality. The unfortunate fact is that women are still not paid equally to that of their male counterparts, women still are not present in equal numbers in business or politics, and globally women's education, health and the violence against them is worse than that of men.

excerpts taken from www.internationalwomensday.com



I would like to take this moment to thank all those women who came before me and sacrificed, suffered, stood strong and gave women not only a voice but a true confidence and ability to believe that she is strong enough, capable enough and more importatly enabled to be a defining factor, in that she can stand up for her beliefs, stay the coarse, and 'be' the change..........in respect to Mother's, in support of ourselves, in hope for the future of daughters, sisters, friends...let's continue to work to give voice to and to stand up for that which we believe to be ultimate equality in each and every moment through all our future endeavours allowing for the right of everyone to be independant, self sufficient and able to be.........................To all of you who have given me support, encouragement, hope and belief along the way............Namaste

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Spiritual Lessons









Do we only see and hear that which we believe to be real and doubt that which we cannot see or understand? If love could be seen would we feel it? If sorrow could not be felt would we hear it? The spirit so luminous, so bright, so real and yet we do not see it. We see, hear and believe in perceived images, houses, cars, children, jobs, clothes these are what we believe in. In times of crisis, we see the good in others.
Rarely do we see or accept the good in ourselves.

Has the light gone out or are we afraid to feel the tremendous power the spirit invokes?
Spirit is immune to our overindulgent, over saturated, conditioned minds, it speaks only to our soul.
Listen quietly, hear the soft, gentle whisper as pleasantly your soul is roused awake and your question is answered. Who Am I?
“ Notes from my life”
Becoming a Butterfly
Knowledge is an obscure footnote to the “Notes of my life” for I believe it is just when we feel that we have it all figured out, that it all seems to fall apart and when we think that we have absolutely no idea what we are doing that we achieve some of the most meaningful experiences in life.

“Notes from my life”... How many there are? Where to start...In the beginning, middle... the here and now....life is sometimes inconspicuous. All life’s experiences converge into one and yet they are all still separate occurrences that shape and define our journey. The journey has seemed long and yet at times I feel life is short and I will not accomplish whatever it is I feel needs to be experienced, achieved, lived before I transition from this life to the beyond.
The Essence
As a girl, I was remember being very spontaneous an yet very serious. Raised without  a 'religious' background, I was left to life’s experiences to guide my learning's in all things spiritual and mortal. From as I can remember, maybe 5, I walks on my own on beautiful, sunny days and experiencing feelings and thoughts of such enormity. Who am I? How did I get here? Why am I here? All at the age of 5 if I 'remember' correctly.  Today I ask myself these same questions and yet the wonderment with which I ask the questions ha changed to a 'true' longing for an answer. Why? Is this a sign of my age? A sign of the most recent 'footnotes of my life' or is that how it is for everyone at some stage in their life? I do not know and this is why I ask?

Life happens and then what? Does it matter why? What if the answer is just "You are who you are" you are here for whatever purpose YOU choose in this life. What do you do with all those incidences that you cannot reconcile in your life (are they your purpose?).  If 'nothing' has a purpose beyond an experience itself, if there is no meaning, if everything just is what it is. Why do so many struggle so hard? Why do so many of us have such a hard time letting things be? or is that just me?

Save for my sanity, I search to find  'purpose' in my life, there have been too many footnotes along the way, to many experiences that have me asking..to what purpose? a true and reverent need to understand 'my' life.

What is a butterflies purpose if it is here for only such a short time? What happens to the caterpillar who works and struggles so valiantly to arrive at the day of transition? Are they one in the same?

When all the questioning is done, is that when the transition is complete and the butterfly appears, only to stay for brief 'moment' and then pass away leaving an ethereal remnant of it's existence, it's beauty, it's softness and it's strength like a gentle caress of a soft breeze on our lives through it's dance like movement of it's wings of freedom.

It's time to sit and quietly listen...Namaste

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Time for change.....A New Beginning




My eyes were tear stained as I became a part of a generation sharing in this historic 'moment' of change in civilization........'A New Beginning' for not only the United States but the planet as a whole. As a person embarking on my own 'new beginnings', I was truly inspired.

As I watched the historic event of the inauguration of Barack Obama becoming the 44th president of the United States it occurred to me that this man appeared to be the same as you and me, a human being....and this I believe is why so many people were overwhelmed at this tremendous 'moment' in history. What drives a being to become president? My hope and belief is that Obama was destined in this life to be the face of change, along the way I am sure he endured many struggles both personal and professional, faced many obstacles and self doubts......as all of us would...but what is meant to be shall always come to pass....and I hope and believe that what drove Obama to become the president was the same dream many of us hold, his passion for change and a dream for a better world.


The world needs that 'moment'......a new experience to bring about necessary change.

Martin Luther King called for 'equality for all men'.....I believe we are at a point where we can call for equality for all beings.

Watching all the people who came together and thinking of the many around the world, black, white, men, women, old, young, famous and unknown I once again felt that we all hold the same hope and dream in our hearts....that the change we all hope, wish and dream for .....is at hand.

What a 'moment'...to be part of the collective dream for peace, equality and freedom for all.

"Be the change you wish to see in the world" Mahatma Gandhi

For all who dare to dream the dream, we must take along with our faith, hope and dreams in one 'moment' the realization of the changes that we all need to make as individuals to promote peace, equality and change.

I believe in the collective as a whole....
I believe in the innate good of humanity....
I believe in you and me.....I BELIEVE.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Another year

Just as I ring in a New Year, I am also celebrating the end of another year with a birthday....yep another year, past 40 to 41.....WOW....41....sorry I had to say it again, for I almost don't believe it........well at least I am out of the valley, now where to go from here?..........I guess I should just jump off the rim's edge and see where that takes me. I thought by the time I hit 40 I would have it all figured out.......really......I mean who knew life could throw such curve balls? I should have known....I should have seen it coming...I mean big, hard white balls are usually pretty easy to pick off.....but smack, I guess I didn't have my bat ready. My initial inclination is to pack it all in and leave the field, but that little fighter in me keeps telling me to pick up my bat and bring it on home, for posterity sake. So as I await to wake tomorrow morning and begin another whole new year.....I am taking my glove to bed with me....just in case of any more flying balls.

They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger? Who said that? My mother? your mother? Mother's everywhere......I guess they should know....if anyone would know it has to be a mother. A mother who's been there and done that.....all I know is that I hope when my children turn 40 I am still here to tell them....."What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger"...........Oh ya, and "Time heals all wounds." They say that too, don't they?

Words of wisdom I can literally pass on to my own.........for I am not dead and with enough time I will finally have it all figured out, won't I? Let's say by 60......I'll get back to you on that...and with all that said I have one more thing to say......Happy Birthday! One more for the long and winding road...............Namaste

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

HAPPY 2009! NEW BEGINNINGS......




Well, we've gone and done it again, slipped into a New Year! Wow........2009! Wher'd all the rest of 2000 go? Time seems to be moving in leaps and bounds these days.....so it was nice to spend the end of the year in a more Yogic fashion........keep it simple, slow down, relax, breath and let it all go......and as for the reflective tradition, I have that covered too. Now I need only work on setting those goals........their, there. I haven't made New Years resolutions since I don't know when, but that does not mean that I don't resolve to continue learning, growing, healing and changing and all the while learning how to accept that change.......this year Yoga helped teach me many things.....and as usual, I learned most......the hard way....this year was no exception....(it`s an old habit), One thing I did learn is that I have been a giver and a taker, a shower and an observer......as I partook in all aspects of my passion and business this year.....I taught and learned, pushed forward and pulled back, struggled and surrendered, gained and lost, laughed and cried along with everyone........I have been lifted and humbled.....and I have definitely grown and that has been what it is all about....learning, growing, uplifting, challenging, believing, giving, surrendering through life.

So here's to New Beginnings, Big and Small......sometimes the smallest steps we take or even when we think we are moving backwards, we just might find we have taken the largest leap forward. Namaste